The weekend we have just had has been a strange one. G left for Le Mans, France on Wednesday to watch the 24 hour race there. He is coming back today (Monday). As I have said a thousand times G works away every week from Monday to Thursday so this shouldn’t have been weird to me. As I have also said loads of times I have battled with anxiety since having Little Man and one of the triggers was being on my own with Little Man. I have it under control now but as he left on Wednesday I felt that familiar feeling of dread creep back in. I kicked it away as quick as it came as I have ways to control it now but it made me wonder why it had reared it’s ugly head.
The only differences were that G was away on different days of the week and for a couple of nights longer. I think I was worried about how I was going to fill the weekend so Little Man didn’t get bored and also feeling a bit lonely thinking of others spending weekends with their families and me and Little Man being on our own. Well, how silly was I?! The amount of offers I had to spend time with family and friends was humbling to say the least (my Mum even came to do my ironing – winner!).
Our weekend actually became quite busy so thank you to those people who kept us company (you know who you are). So take that Anxiety! We don’t need you! Little Man & I actually ended up having a lovely weekend, he really is my best little buddy and makes me smile so much. We are now eagerly awaiting G’s return later today. I am not, however looking forward to the rather large amount of washing he will bring back with him,
the amount of photos of cars I will have to look through or the explosion of unpacking that will no doubt grace my living room!
I think it’s good for me to have change sometimes. If you are an anxiety sufferer you will know that change is our worst nightmare but what this weekend has proved to me is that sometimes it is good for you. It gives you a chance to prove to yourself that you can do things without someone holding your hand or your comfort blanket.
Right I’m off to tidy the house so G thinks it always looks like a show home when he is away and it is most definitely him that creates all the mess!!
Have a lovely day.