Where Have I Been?!
*Looking around sheepishly* Hi?? Remember me?? Yes! I’m that one that you get annoying subscription emails with my blog posts from or the one that fills up her Twitter feed with new blog posts! Except you haven’t been getting those emails and my tweets have been old posts!
What’s my excuse for my lack of blogging? Erm I don’t really have one other than I have been very busy being pregnant!
Let me try to explain. When I was pregnant with Little Man I loved it. I spent night after night watching my little baby boy wriggle round in my tummy. I carefully picked out the perfect pushchair, perfect clothes, perfect everything. I had barely any morning sickness, I carried him well even though he was big and I felt good. I was proud of my bump and everything it stood for; I was fairly relaxed, a little bit naive and I had plenty of time to put my feet up if I needed to and check my hospital bag and baby lists numerous times.
Now that little baby is nearly 4 I knew that this pregnancy wouldn’t be as blissful. I knew that I would be much tireder from running round after him all day or working and then having to sort him out too. I wasn’t naive.
I was not prepared for this. I was not prepared for a twin pregnancy to knock me off my feet quite as much as it has. I didn’t expect to feel exhaustion like I have never experienced. I am 22 weeks now and I didn’t expect to still be feeling sick. I didn’t expect to get so big so quickly. I didn’t expect the game changes that came with expecting twins, going from one child to three; the need for a much bigger car, the need for my bank balance to take a battering, the need for a complete move around in the house to accommodate my beautiful girls and the fortnightly consultant scan appointments. This on top of still trying to be a good Mum to Little Man who doesn’t constantly just tell him to play on his own because Mummy’s too tired and do a half decent job at work and of course all the chores I am one tired mama.
However, truth be told I’ve missed my blog, I’ve missed documenting our life. I have sat down on so many Sunday evenings and started to open up my overflowing inbox and been too intimidated by it and tired and given up. Today I felt like I was ready to give it all a go again so here I am. I set myself a schedule months ago of blog posts on Mondays, Wednesdays & Fridays and although compared to other bloggers this isn’t very many, with a part time job and a husband that works away that was plenty enough for me. However even that feels like too much at the moment so I am going to drop to two posts a week and see how we get on.
I hope everyone is well and you don’t mind me popping back up with my big long excuse for not blogging; justifying it to myself more than anyone else I think it is fair to assume!
Look out for my next pregnancy update coming soon along with photos from our latest holiday to Norfolk, Little Man’s new Disney cars bedroom and of course how my post-natal anxiety is going now I am pregnant again.
See you soon! It’s good to be back.