So the last time I wrote a post, it was a rushed one. One to quickly update you about what had happened. The unimaginable happened which you can read about here. I love my blog and I don’t want to let it go to waste; it is my diary and all of this feels like it needs documenting too. If you were to ask me how I feel I couldn’t answer you so I am going to go gentle on us all. I won’t be blogging constantly about what happened but I will in time write about our experiences in the hope others will find comfort in it, maybe help and support and also explain to those close to me how I am feeling. I will also be back at some point with my usual normal ramblings. Life is busy at the moment with splitting my time between Little Man and Little Lady in Neonatal so I’m not sure when I will be back but I will be. For now, however I have a short poem I want to share with you. I wrote this a couple days after having the twins in the bereavement room in the hospital.
Two Little Girls
Two little girls; one meant for earth but you had wings waiting.
A little bit of angel dust was sprinkled on your nose; it was time for separating.
Sleep well our precious beauty, in your sister you will live on.
All four of us will sit and pick which star is yours before the night is gone.
Your mummy & your daddy, your brother & your twin will love you to those stars and back, until the end of time.
And I will always remember my precious little girl, when you were here in my arms and for a little while simply mine.