A Letter To My Little Girl – #BabyLossAwarenessWeek

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Dear Little Angel,

I’ve been wanting to write this letter for a while, I don’t think I could find the words until now.

I am sitting here with your twin sister, she is cuddled up in her bouncer after a lovely milk feed. You probably want to know that she is doing well; she has overcome some amazing obstacles and she is doing us all proud. You did that. You let me know that something was wrong in my tummy; the home that you shared with your sister. Thank you.

Grief is a funny thing isn’t it? You hear people say all the time that there is no right or wrong way to do it. They’re right. I don’t think I have found the right way to grieve for you yet. Sometimes I am sad, sometimes angry but most of all I just feel loss. Your sister and your brother mean the world to me but there is something missing. A little piece isn’t here in our family jigsaw; that little piece is you.

It wasn’t fair what happened and for a long time I have been consumed with painful guilt. You see, my Little Angel I was frightened all the way through my pregnancy, scared of this happening but I guess I didn’t really think it would. When the consultant told me it had my whole life changed. I had two beautiful baby girls and I’d only just got to know you before I had to say goodbye. 29 weeks I carried you. 29 weeks you made me very very sick. 29 weeks you and your sister grew in my tummy. And I loved you from the moment I knew you were there.

Your brother talks about you a lot. I like that. Some people are frightened to mention your name in case they upset me. But your brother mentions you every day. He is confused about why you left us so soon but he remembers you and I know he will tell your sister all about the kicks he felt and the photos of inside my tummy he saw. He will tell her about the balloons he let off for you when we laid you to rest while your sister was fighting hard in her incubator.

People say to me that there are no words to say. No words big enough to express the feelings surrounding all this. It’s true. How can I even say how much I miss you, how much I love you, how much I wish things had turned out differently but please know you are always in our hearts and I will come and see you lots.

At the end of this Baby Loss Awareness week there is a Wave of Light on the 15th October. The 15th October was your due date so it makes it an extra special day. I will light a candle for you and for all the other little babies lost. I will think of you on that special day but not only then. I will think of you on yours and your sisters birthday, Christmas, family occasions, outings with friends. I will think of your every day. 29 weeks wasn’t long enough but I am thankful for every minute of it.

Lots of Love,

Mummy x



A Cornish Mum
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  • Briony
    11/10/2016 at 20:53

    So beautifully written. There is nothing I can really say. I am so sorry. #TwinklyTuesday

  • Claire
    15/10/2016 at 08:16

    oh hun, I am moved to tears, I am so sorry for your loss. I am so glad your little boy keeps her memory so fondly and hope you can all find peace in time xx #picnmix

  • Alice Soule
    16/10/2016 at 20:56

    Heartbreaking. I don’t really have anything useful to say but I hope you are able to see a bit of your angel baby growing on through your daughter. Beautiful that your son talks about her, I love how children just speak what they think; their rawness and honesty is refreshing.

  • Amie
    17/10/2016 at 12:22

    Such a beautiful yet so upsetting post at the same time. Thankyou for having the courage to share your story and help other people whom have also had the tradgedy of suffering the same losses. I’m so sorry you had to go through that. Hugs and kisses xx #SundayBest

  • Lisa Cornwell
    17/10/2016 at 19:42

    So beautiful, especially the bit about your son always talking about her. I can see that her spirit will be kept on within your home. Sending you so much love and thank you for linking up with #TwinklyTuesday xxx

    • Mummy in Training
      28/10/2016 at 21:36

      Thank you so much hun xx

  • A Cornish Mum
    20/10/2016 at 10:18

    Absolutely beautiful letter lovely, you are an amazing mother, a lovely person and a fabulous writer xxx
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    • Mummy in Training
      28/10/2016 at 21:36

      Thank you lovely and for all your support xx

  • Mummy and Monkeys
    20/10/2016 at 16:46

    Such a beautiful letter, sorry I’m a nit lost for words and crying after reading it, but I want you to know that you have all been in my thoughts for a long time xx
    Thanks for linking to #PickNMix
    Eilidh x

    • Mummy in Training
      28/10/2016 at 21:35

      Thank you so much hun xx

    • Mummy in Training
      28/10/2016 at 21:35

      Thank you so much hun xx

  • Calvin Green
    19/11/2016 at 09:32

    A brave woman tho. The lost of your child makes you stronger than before. I’m sure that your angel is happy in heaven.Live your life beautifully together with your family!
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  • Laura simmonda
    07/01/2017 at 11:31

    Beautiful words for your little girl. Sorry for your loss xxxx

  • Katy - Hot Pink Wellingtons
    08/01/2017 at 14:03

    I’m so sorry for your loss. You’re right, there are no words, but you write so beautifully here, and it’s so lovely that your son seems to have all the right words. Sometimes children deal with things in the most perfect way. Thank you for sharing this with us at #SharingtheBlogLove

  • Laura - Dear Bear and Beany
    10/01/2017 at 12:24

    This is beautiful and so well written. I am sure she is watching you and listening to your words. Thank you for sharing it with us at #SharingtheBlogLove x


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I’m Rachel, a 30 something Mum to 6 year old Little Man & 2 year old twin girls (one with us & one in the sky).

I’m an anxiety sufferer, list writer and secret chocolate eater.

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