The pressure of a new year
‘What are your new years resolutions Rach?’ someone asked me the other day. Argh the dreaded question! Does anyone else feel like that?
Don’t get me wrong, I like the feeling that comes with a new year; I’m a planner so I like to be able to look ahead into the year and plan what will happen. The difference with that and sharing it with the whole world or Facebook at least is that it’s private. I write them in my diary or even just keep them in my head but let’s be honest if I do them or not it doesn’t really matter. If I say them out loud though or write them on social media, the pressure sets in! It’s all a little bit irrational really; the likelihood of people remembering or caring what I said this time last year is slim. I doubt anyone will be scrolling through my feeds checking whether I completed my resolutions or not but yet I still feel the pressure.
So, my question is, by setting these resolutions so publicly are we setting ourselves up for a fall? I can quite easily tell you now that in 2017 I want to get rid of 2 stone of my body weight. I can also pretty confidently tell you that this time next year I will probably be the same size. Believe me, I will try but
I like chocolate and wine too much for some reason the pressure makes me feel guilty for every biscuit I eat and then I give up! This is probably because in January when life is a bit dull and there is a lot of Christmas chocolate around I am not in the right mindset for doing it. I have forced myself into making that decision because I feel I should, because it’s January. Come Spring, I will probably be feeling much more like doing it but by then I’ve already tried once and failed.
I realise I am sounding quite negative about the new year but that really isn’t the case. I like to reflect on the year that has gone although this one has been a hard one. I have a shiny new notebook with plans for the next few months scribbled inside. I have got back into using my diary and feel a lot more organised but I think for me, it is about the sharing. So from me there will be no bucket lists, resolutions or plans. At this point last year I would have never foreseen the year ahead of me and I think that has changed my outlook on life quite a lot. It doesn’t matter how much I plan, life throws curve balls and I have had a lot of those in the last 12 months. Living for the moment feels a little more appropriate for me at the moment and a little bit of throwing caution to the wind and letting things happen. Right, where’s that biscuit tin!