Dear Little Lady,
I can’t quite believe I’m writing this. I can’t believe that already you are one. When I look back over this year I’m not really sure how we got here but we did and I couldn’t be prouder of you.
You didn’t have the easiest start to life. You came out before you were ready; you were tucked up in my belly with your sister. I often wonder if you miss her. I remember the moment you were born. Your sister came first and then it was your turn. I looked at Daddy and waited, waited to hear that cry. You needed a bit of help but you got there. The relief I felt in that moment was immense. We didn’t know if you were going to be ok but right then and there you were. You got taken away so quickly to be put in your incubator; the incubator that became your home for over a month in the end. I couldn’t see you for a while because of having a C-section but when I did I cried. You were so little; 3lbs isn’t a lot really. You were hooked up to so many wires and I was so frightened. I couldn’t lose you too.
I didn’t need to worry though, you fought and you fought hard. Every day of the 9 weeks you spent in hospital I wondered what I was walking in to. There were plenty of set backs in the early days but one day something just clicked and within a week you were off the oxygen, out of the incubator and learning to feed. You got a reputation on the Neonatal ward for being sassy, feisty and rather loud!! There were scary and frightening days but there were amazing ones too. We watched you grow in front of our eyes. Then in October we bought you home.
Your brother was over the moon to have you home and he hasn’t stopped loving you since. Since then you have thrived.
What can I say about you my lovely little girl? You are feisty, you are loud, you are hilarious and you love to snort like a piggy. You make me smile every day and you are genuinely a joy to be around. You bought happiness to our family when I thought it would never be there again. You are my rainbow baby. So there we go. You are one. You aren’t really, you were premature so at the moment you are more like a 9 month old. You are about to start nursery; I really hope you love it. I can’t wait to watch you grow in your second year.
Little Lady, you might be small but you are tough and I am so very grateful to be able to wish you a happy first birthday.
All my love,