As the title suggests tomorrow is my 3rd blog birthday! 3 years of blogging! I am so very lucky to now be in the position to call myself a blogger. I have no other job, this is what I do and although I am nowhere near where I want to and need to be I am so proud of how far my blog has come.
However, first and foremost this blog has always been my favourite therapist. I started because that’s exactly what I needed. I was suffering from my first bout of bad anxiety and I had no idea how to get all the thoughts that were whizzing around my head out. I wasn’t ready to talk, not in person anyway so I began writing. I just wrote, for no one else but myself and it worked. It really helped. I carried on with my blog and it became a bit of an addiction. Any spare time I had I spent writing and with that writing came other bloggers. I started to read other peoples blogs, chat to them on Twitter and really start to feel part of a lovely community.
What I found the best thing at this stage was how much I was learning. I had found a passion for something I didn’t even know I had and I became like a 4 year old when they start school. I was a sponge and I wanted to understand the technicalities behind this blogging lark.
When my heart broke into a thousand pieces in 2016 my blog was there for me but not only my blog but the little community around it that had been created. I received gifts in the post from the most wonderful ladies, ladies who I had never met but wanted to tell me they were thinking of me. It might all sound a bit silly but writing was one of the things that got me through the first 6 months after having the twins.
So here we are in 2018. This blog is my job now and I love that I get to share so much with you lot. I love that I get to share my experiences of anxiety and baby loss and it helps. Receiving a message from a baby loss mummy to tell me that my post made her feel less alone is why I do it. Because once upon a time I was that person feeling alone with my anxiety and if I can stop someone else feeling like that through me sat at my desk at home then it’s been worth all the hard work.
So a very happy blog birthday to me. I cannot wait to see what year 4 of it brings! Thank you to everyone that keeps reading my posts, watching my ramblings on Instagram stories and likes my social media posts. You are helping this 32 year old mum of two realise the dream she didn’t know she had.