There is often a lot of focus on the bond between a Mum and her new baby when they are first born. There’s the very first cuddle as soon as they come out, their first latch when breastfeeding, their first nappy explosion, the first time they open their eyes. It’s such a special moment. But what if its not like that? What if your baby is put straight into an emergency incubator and wheeled away to Neonatal before you have had chance to get over the last contraction or before you have left the operating theatre? For many Mums this… View Post

Trigger Warning Grief. It’s just a word, a name for our sadness but oh my goodness does it come with some weight. To say you are grieving comes with so much behind it but to every person it means something slightly different. Why? Because every single one of us grieves differently every single time we grieve. Grief comes with expectations. When I was grieving for my baby girl I felt like there was a certain way I should be acting. People became worried if I wasn’t crying. But in reality, I only really started crying over her about 6 months… View Post

I remember sitting by Little Lady’s incubator day after day wondering what the future held for her. At that point we had no idea if she would survive the next day let alone have her whole life ahead of her. 9 weeks later when we took her home, there was a huge relief that came over me. We would be okay now, we had her home, she was over the worst of it. What I didn’t realise then was the journey that a premature baby then goes on once they have come home. In case you are reading this without… View Post

The day I bought my tiny baby home weighing just over 4lbs was the most overwhelming day I have ever experienced. We waited all day for discharge papers, prescriptions and doctors notes. We were given a first aid course, instructions on how to measure out her medicines and our car seat was checked. At around 7pm in the evening we finally walked out with her to take her home and to meet her little brother. The days that followed were intense, we had to not only settle into a feeding and sleeping routine but we had round the clock medical… View Post

If you have ever been to your local hospital for scans, appointments, etc have you ever noticed the Neonatal unit? I hadn’t. I had been to my local hospital numerous times when I was pregnant for the second time. Consultant led care came with having twins so I was in the hospital often every two weeks. Looking back on it now I probably walked past the Neonatal unit nearly every time I visited. Not once did I notice. The first time I noticed where it was was when I was being wheeled down there nearly 12 hours after having my… View Post