**Trigger Warning** Welcome back to my new series Life After the Loss of a Twin. Last week was Baby Loss Awareness Week and in support of it and the aim to keep talking about baby loss past the week itself I wanted to share more than my story on my blog. The loss of a twin isn’t something is talked about as much in the baby loss world and I wanted to do my bit towards changing that. Losing a twin is such a bittersweet experience and brings on such a range of emotions. As always, with baby loss there is no right… View Post

**Trigger Warning** This week is Baby Loss Awareness Week and in support of it and the aim to keep talking about baby loss I wanted to share more than my story on my blog. As you will probably already know I lost my daughter Heidi in July 2016; Little Lady is her twin sister. The loss of a twin isn’t something is talked about as much in the baby loss world and I wanted to do my bit towards changing that. Losing a twin is such a bittersweet experience and something that can be so very hard to deal with.… View Post

**Trigger Warning**   Dear Parents, You don’t know me and I don’t know you but somehow we smiled at each other with the smile of understanding. You were stood in the playground and I overheard you say to another parent that you had lost your baby. I don’t know whether this happened recently or whether like me, it happened a couple of years ago or even longer than that. The truth is, it doesn’t matter because as I glanced over to you and you caught my eye I saw the same look in your eyes as I have seen in… View Post

If you follow my social media accounts you will probably have noticed I’m having a bit of re-jig. This blog isn’t going anywhere but it will be more focused on mental health, NICU and baby loss (there is a new blog coming soon for all things routine too so keep your eyes peeled for that), three things that have changed my life in the past 6 years. To reflect that I have a new strap line for Mummy in Training; finding my new normal.  Have you ever noticed the little ‘HS’ in the cloud just for my little Heidi? Anyway, I… View Post

Dear NICU Nurses, I don’t think I ever properly said thank you; a rushed one maybe as I put my not even 5lb baby into her car seat for the very first time after 9 weeks of being with you. It was all a blur to be honest. We were clutching bags and bags of medication for her and trying not to drop the breathing monitor she was attached to. You all gave me encouraging smiles as I left, wished us well and told us to come back and visit you. I smiled, thanked you and we walked away. We… View Post