Welcome to the first post in my NICU Life series. Little Lady spent 9 weeks in NICU (Neonatal Intensive Care Unit). I wanted to read about other Mum’s experiences; I wanted to know if how I was feeling about it all was normal so I thought it only right that I shared my experiences of it too. Little Lady was born one hour into my 29th week of pregnancy weighing just over 3lbs, you can read about why she was born early here. Our 9 week NICU journey was the hardest one of my life so far. There are more steps back than there… View Post

*Trigger Warning* ‘I’m glad it’s not twins!’ A pregnant mama said that to me today in the park. She was relieved that her larger than average bump was only carrying one baby. I smiled along with her, even nodded along in agreement when she said what a nightmare it would have been as she already had one child. It wasn’t her fault that I walked away from that conversation with my 4 year old and baby twinless twin a little bit stung. She wasn’t to know that just 8 months ago I had delivered beautiful twin girls yet I was only… View Post

***Trigger Warning – Baby Loss*** Grief is an odd concept. We all do it differently. There are no rules, no right and wrong way to cope with it. You have no idea how you will cope until it happens. Some days I feel empty without my third child. I miss her; I miss what she would have been. Other days I feel like I can take on the world for her. It is a journey, sometimes a dark one, sometimes a hopeful one but a journey that is personal. Photo Credit – Alistair Rowan Photography People often tell me that… View Post

Little Lady is now 7 months old. No, I’m not sure how that happened either! My tiny little 3lb baby who I sat with day after day staring into her incubator is now a chubby 15lb and most importantly healthy. She spent 9 weeks in Neonatal and came home weighing just over 4lbs. We are on the good side of things now but when we first bought her home it was all quite overwhelming. I really appreciated the people around me being understanding but sometimes people aren’t quite as accommodating. Understandably everyone wants to meet the baby that has been kept… View Post

*Trigger Warning* I have been trying to write a post for ages about the intricacies of losing a twin. I find it so hard to explain to people how it feels without feeling like I am doing one of my girls a disservice. If I focus on Little Angel I feel like I am coming across like I don’t appreciate that Little Lady is here safe and well. If I focus on Little Lady I feel like I am forgetting Little Angel. Because I have a had a new baby and a rocky start with her too I think I… View Post