**Trigger – Baby Loss**   When I have sadly lost people close to me in the past one of my worries has always been forgetting. I had a fear of forgetting what they looked like or what they sounded like. However, I have got years and years of memories with them and hundreds of photos. A couple of nights ago I woke up at 2am filled with worry and upset. I don’t know if I had been dreaming about my baby girl but all of a sudden I had this overwhelming fear of forgetting her. I was worried I would… View Post

*Trigger Warning* As I have hinted at recently, a couple of weeks ago I left my job as a School Librarian to be at home with my kids. The one thing I will say before I get into the nitty gritty of this is that I know I am very lucky to be in the position where I could do this and also that this blogging hobby has gradually grown into something more than that. However, I never really pictured myself as a Mum who stayed at home all the time (I was working 3 days a week); not for… View Post

Trigger Warning: Baby Loss This week is baby loss awareness week. Something which is so close to my heart. If you don’t know my story I lost one of my twin girls when they were born at 29 weeks. It is single-handedly the hardest thing I have ever been through and it needs to be talked about more. To mark it I wanted to share some ways of helping if you have a loved one who has been through this too. I have encountered all sorts of reactions to baby loss and no one is right or wrong. Some are… View Post

I remember the day we bought Little Lady home, it was just over a year ago and it was one of the scariest moments of my life. She was hooked up to a breathing monitor and she was tiny. We were armed with a huge bag of medication for her and I was armed with fear. Could I look after her as well as the nurses did? Was she ready for the big wide world after 9 weeks on the Neonatal ward? Of course she was; she had endured being on oxygen, numerous near death experiences, injections, possible infections, chronic… View Post

*Trigger Warning* It’s funny how grief hits you sometimes. Well, no its not funny, it’s rubbish but you get the jist. You think you’re having a good day with it all, a good week even and then bam! Something hits. For me it was a photo; it wasn’t a photo of my little angel though like you might think. It was a photo of Little Man & Little Lady and some other children too. There was a space, right next to my kids and it just looked empty. It looked like it wasn’t meant to be there and it wasn’t.… View Post