Little Lady was in NICU for 9 weeks and in this post I want to talk about emotions and how the array of mostly negative emotions are normal to feel. I spent days sat by Little Lady’s incubator and chatted to lots of other parents and believe me we all felt these emotions at one point another. Here are 5 emotions that are totally natural to feel if your baby is in NICU. Fear – The first time I walked down the corridor to meet my baby girl in NICU was one of the most terrifying experiences. I had seen a… View Post

*Trigger Warning* ‘I’m glad it’s not twins!’ A pregnant mama said that to me today in the park. She was relieved that her larger than average bump was only carrying one baby. I smiled along with her, even nodded along in agreement when she said what a nightmare it would have been as she already had one child. It wasn’t her fault that I walked away from that conversation with my 4 year old and baby twinless twin a little bit stung. She wasn’t to know that just 8 months ago I had delivered beautiful twin girls yet I was only… View Post

***Trigger Warning – Baby Loss*** Grief is an odd concept. We all do it differently. There are no rules, no right and wrong way to cope with it. You have no idea how you will cope until it happens. Some days I feel empty without my third child. I miss her; I miss what she would have been. Other days I feel like I can take on the world for her. It is a journey, sometimes a dark one, sometimes a hopeful one but a journey that is personal. Photo Credit – Alistair Rowan Photography People often tell me that… View Post

*Trigger Warning* I have been trying to write a post for ages about the intricacies of losing a twin. I find it so hard to explain to people how it feels without feeling like I am doing one of my girls a disservice. If I focus on Little Angel I feel like I am coming across like I don’t appreciate that Little Lady is here safe and well. If I focus on Little Lady I feel like I am forgetting Little Angel. Because I have a had a new baby and a rocky start with her too I think I… View Post

Wow 6 months! 6 months ago I was in shock. One of my girls had grown her wings and one was in an incubator fighting for her life. Not forgetting my little man waking up to find Mummy & Daddy had gone in the night and Granny and Grandad were there instead. It’s amazing how your life can change in an instant. How your whole outlook can change; my whole world was rocked and to be honest it’s not stopped since. So 6 months on we have a new normal. So much has changed. I am learning how to walk… View Post