Trigger Warning Dear Little Angel, I’ve been wanting to write this letter for a while, I don’t think I could find the words until now. I am sitting here with your twin sister, she is cuddled up in her bouncer after a lovely milk feed. You probably want to know that she is doing well; she has overcome some amazing obstacles and she is doing us all proud. You did that. You let me know that something was wrong in my tummy; the home that you shared with your sister. Thank you. Grief is a funny thing isn’t it? You… View Post

Dear New Neonatal Mum, I saw you when you walked into the room that our daughters are in. You smiled and said hi, I congratulated you on your beautiful girl. You said how surprised you are that my teeny tiny girl was nearly 6 weeks old, we politely swapped stories. You looked frightened. I remember feeling like that.   I don’t think you ever know what goes on behind those doors until you’re there. All those tiny babies, all those poorly babies and the parents who are as white as a sheet. The beeping…oh god the beeping. It drives you… View Post

I wrote my last post nearly 5 weeks ago telling you all our bittersweet news; if you don’t know you can read about it here. I have barely had time to think let alone blog but I have missed it so here I am in 5 minutes of quiet time dusting off the laptop (it was surprisingly dusty!). Obviously our lives have taken a strange turning and going through my list of planned posts, most of which included the word ‘twins’ has left me feeling a little sad and a little unsure about what I want to say. So instead… View Post

So the last time I wrote a post, it was a rushed one. One to quickly update you about what had happened. The unimaginable happened which you can read about here. I love my blog and I don’t want to let it go to waste; it is my diary and all of this feels like it needs documenting too. If you were to ask me how I feel I couldn’t answer you so I am going to go gentle on us all. I won’t be blogging constantly about what happened but I will in time write about our experiences in the hope others will find… View Post

My blog and writing is such a big part of my life; I spend half my life doing something and writing the blog post about it in my head at the same time. For once, however I just couldn’t find the words. But, this blog is all about the ups and downs of parenting and from a more personal point of view a family diary for us. I have gone backwards and forwards deciding whether to just shut it down, whether to skim over things or tell you about what’s happened. I’m going with the third option. So here goes,… View Post