As most of you know I am suffer with anxiety. For a long time I thought it would be something that the pills would fix and that would be that. The pills have helped hugely; they have helped me to think more clearly and manage my anxiety. However, for whatever reason anxiety is still a part of my life and I have come to the point where I have accepted that it probably always will be. So, instead of trying to cure myself, I am spending more time focusing on how to give myself as many anxiety free days as… View Post

Dear NICU Nurses, I don’t think I ever properly said thank you; a rushed one maybe as I put my not even 5lb baby into her car seat for the very first time after 9 weeks of being with you. It was all a blur to be honest. We were clutching bags and bags of medication for her and trying not to drop the breathing monitor she was attached to. You all gave me encouraging smiles as I left, wished us well and told us to come back and visit you. I smiled, thanked you and we walked away. We… View Post

Anxiety a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease about something with an uncertain outcome. That is the official definition of the word anxiety and I think it’s pretty spot on but it is also quite a weak definition when it comes to mental health. Feeling nervous and a bit uneasy is very different to the feeling of a full on anxiety attack. They happen differently for everyone but for me they start with me feeling like my legs are going numb, my breathing quickens and I suddenly feel very alone with my thoughts. I can be in a room full… View Post

The summer holidays are nearly over and it’s time to start thinking about getting the kids back to school. This year I can’t wait to see Little Man heading off into Year 1 as he enjoyed last year so much. However last year I was a worried mess, wondering how he was going to cope. Being a new school mum can be pretty daunting too; there is a lot to remember, think about and keep up with along with making sure that your little one is happy and enjoying school. There are a few things which I wish I had… View Post

Today is my 33rd birthday and although not a milestone birthday it has become a bit of a personal milestone this year. This time last year I was sat in my pyjamas all day, not because of my love of pj’s but because I didn’t want to face the day. It was my 32nd birthday and I could not have cared less. I was in the depths of anxiety, possible depression and most definitely grief. I had huge physical symptoms from my anxiety that day too. I couldn’t see straight because I was so dizzy from the hyperventilating. I had… View Post